Raining, dark, blowin'... The other morning occurred to me an overwhelming sense that I should be thankfull for the small thing such as this nice coffee-maker, glass coffee pot that I could just waltz out here and make coffee in practically whenever I wanted to....a dry kitchen with running water...a nice hot gas stove fire. a nice bathroom sink with runnning hot & cold water---even if one has to wear shoes there all the time due to the toilet leaking water & urine all over the floor for the past 4 years... When the void gets yawnin g & overwhelming one holds onto the tiniest thing. And you still go out and cry at the universe behind the tree in the backyard, yelling your anger & your fury into the darkness and your legs get cramped and your feet get wet... I cried when we watched Exit To Eden nar the end where Rosie advises "Now, we have to cultivate the good ones, you know," because as much as a bozo 'e's 'bout human sense there's probably no more gooder one than this on the scale of things.

Two social occasions just now of the Who's afraid of Virginia Wolf?-type. Here won't you paly this game etc. at one, and then at the other was even the announcement "I'm going to get our son, honey." Why am I here in this horror of one horror after another? I thought I was trying...am I going to die soon...
Jeff sez he's bringing me some bags of sand. And I planted the balm of lemon today. Saw 2 chipmunks...a cardinal. There is nothing, everything is gone.

Ragworts, bluets, trilliums, a broad band of marsh mairgolds all seen from the confines of Doug's truck all of a spring morning, missing a turn because we're arguing. Small asters in the Clarion lawns like stars in the whirling blackness of the blackness of the short nite. Why sleep anymore, it's not worth the trouble, all the trouble

Fuzzy moon in the sky with the leaves on the gingko trees just sprouting out, concrete buildings, hot, hot days. All unsettled & buzzing like wasps, beams flying & waves swelling. Faint peepers in the dead woods and missed messages. Thoughts like blossoms, eye-bright then falling faded on the ground, on the earth. Tantalum. How many SUV's are on the road.Concerned Parents of sick Girard School.how much to run a mailstation in clarington..Check out this month's The World & I magazine for article by fellow traveller photographer, Scott McAlpine, about our trip on the Northern Ranger down the coast of Labrador. geology software for drawing srtratigraphic sections.